The Loss of a Loved One

The Loss of a Loved One

For the longest time I looked at death as something that was just supposed to eventually happen to all of us. Why think about it, why torture myself with the undeniable truth, in other words why scare myself with the reality that one day we will no longer exist. The fact of the matter is, not existing is absolutely terrifying to me. I had never been faced with the feeling of grief, for that matter never put much thought into what tragedy and what affliction would do to me. In all honesty it was something I overlooked purposely. In hopes of comfort, instead death was simply part of the cycle of life, or at least that’s what I told myself.  I was ignorant! In so many ways I was oblivious and naive to how death would change the person I once was. I suppose I felt that worrying about the inevitable brought more fear than anything and unnecessary anxiety.  When my grandpa died a great part of me died along with him, he took the best part of me when I was compelled to say goodbye. I didn’t have the mentality to understand or bear, even the thought of death. I wasn’t equipped for the changes and challenges I was defied with, and I wasn’t emotionally capable of handling the pain I was striving to overcome after my grandpa’s passing.

At that period in my life, time was limitless, it had no significant meaning to me, and I unfortunately carried on like time was dispensable. I seen death as either sickness or old age and most times a combination of both. I had this ridiculous idea of what life was supposed to be like and how death was supposed to go as if there was a specific guideline to follow. Never did I consider the fact that death comes unexpectedly and has a timeframe of its own. I didn’t expect the death of my grandpa to hit me out of nowhere, I was completely blindsided by it and I think that’s what hurt me the most.

Gone forever was unmanageable, my heart was shattered, and I felt the weight of a thousand pounds lying on my chest with just the idea of never touching, smelling, or hearing his voice again. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye and it’s not that I didn’t want to, it’s that I honestly felt like I couldn’t let go. I had to face the fact that such an important person in my life would no longer be here. Grandpa was literally here one day, the next just gone. When you look at the people that mean the most to you, you don’t think about how their presence will affect you when they’re no longer here. You may see someone completely healthy on the outside and believe they have years to spend with you, but don’t think about the moment they won’t be. For that matter you don’t think a person who appears to be healthy will just die abruptly.

The night before grandpa’s passing, I was supposed to go see him but decided I would go the next morning, “No big deal,” I thought. The next morning, he was rushed to the hospital by ambulance and I never stood a chance. I had promised him I would help him around the house, I would clean his fridge out and do some chores. For over a year he cared for my bedridden grandma and took care of essentially every aspect of their lives. He was a 74-year-old man who worked most of his life and at his age and state of being I looked upon him as fragile and too old to be doing all he did. He was the rock of the family, he was the foundation, someone who led by example, the most honest influential person in my life, no longer around to hold things together.

That morning I received a call and the for the next thirty seconds following, everything around me suddenly chimed out, my heart felt like it sunk to my stomach and I felt like I had a baseball stuck in my throat. I didn’t move, I didn’t hear the tv that was playing in the background, my three-month-old Jaxson was crying, and I was clueless.  Adrenaline kicked in like a second wind, and for that moment I was no longer tired, my mind was racing, heart was pounding, and I felt my entire body trembling in fear like my world was coming down. That was it, I was going into full blown panic attack. “What on earth was going on,” I thought. I had just seen him two days ago, he was healthier than my parents who were in their fifties. It was nauseating, I wanted to puke, every bone in my body ached.

“Grandpa had a fall and EMT crew believes he suffered head trauma,” were the next words that would change the course of my life. I couldn’t believe the words my mom was saying I didn’t want her to speak another word, I just wanted it all to stop. We car pulled to the hospital and the ride felt like an eternity, tears rolled down my cheeks and I sat quietly listening to her as she tried to explain what happened. “I got a call from your grandma on my way back from Ludington,” she said. She proceeded to tell me about how grandma was concerned with grandpa, he wasn’t responding to her as she called out his name. 15 minutes passed and no response, no movements made, absolutely no sounds. “It was concerning to me,” she admitted. She explained that grandpa took a cup to the kitchen to fill a glass of water, but he hadn’t come back. Grandma didn’t call for help because she wasn’t sure if it was another one of those scare’s he would give her from time to time, she didn’t want to alert anyone if there was no need.

“The doors were locked and we couldn’t get in, we broke a window in the bedroom” mom said. From the corner of the kitchen she could see my grandpa’s boots, he was stretched out on the tile floor stuck between the stove and the counter that was no more than a foot in width, his legs bent under the sink cabinet, and his arm was severely bruised and had lost circulation. “I myself was scared to what I might find,” she cried. She was weeping as she told me they could barely feel a pulse, he was barely breathing. “We went from one side to the next and didn’t realize we had walked right passed him twice before noticing his boots, how could your brother, sister and I not see him,” she began to shout. Between the three of them, they managed to pull him out and started to perform CPR while first responders walked them through the steps.

“He looked to the sky one last time, back at me, and then he let out a sigh almost like relieved,” she quivered barely able to speak anymore. Her voice crackly she finished to say, “as soon as he made it outside and laid on the dirt, he completely lost consciousness within seconds and his eyes rolled to the back of his head.” I was a wreck, I could furthermore bear such tribulation. The devastation not only broke my heart but, in her voice, I could hear the agony and could see the look on her face of disbelief, and sorrow. It was all too much, every thought of what he went through, and how he was alone, made me sob like a baby. I didn’t know what to think, feel, how to act, or what to say. I wanted to console my mom, but I couldn’t put the pieces together to make sense of it myself. I tried to focus my thoughts on his contagious smile than the brutal images that were now stuck in my head.

As soon as we approached the front desk my mom shaking in fear, asked to be directed to grandpa’s room. We were told to take a seat and a doctor would be with us shorty. No more than ten minutes passed and there was a doctor approaching us. I think at that moment I didn’t want to move, I felt a tightening in my body, I was imprecisely holding my breath and dreading the news we might receive. They asked only my mom go in first and from the hall I could see her pacing back and forth. She was on the phone and looked hysterical. I concluded she must be calling family out of state with bad news. I waited impatiently when without warning, another doctor approached me from behind and led me to his room. I stood up and slowly walked down the hall. The doctor told me not to be alarmed and to take caution. “Caution?” I thought. What is that supposed to even mean in a moment like this? I didn’t comprehend what she meant when she said that, but she pulled back the curtain without hesitation.

“Take a few moments to say goodbye, we give you forty-five minutes that’s standard procedure with a situation like this,” the doctor blurted in a passive and apathetic voice. As she showed me his charts, she told me to look at the scan of his brain, he was no longer considered to be living because he had no brain function at all due to suffering of a stroke. “He was hypertensive which most likely triggered the attack,” she continued, and there was nothing they could or would do for him. She then had the audacity to say they needed the room as the hospital was extremely busy that day. In spite of that, it didn’t stop her at the least, she went on to say he would need to be removed from the ventilation system as soon as we said goodbye.

As she spoke, I watched her every gesture and move, half of what she said went in one ear and out the other. She was no one to me, she was inadequate, emotionless, unappealing, incompetent if you will. Disgruntled would have been an understatement, I was repulsed with the way she handled the circumstances and the way she carried herself in general. Her presence alone was offensive and revolting. Despite all that, she insisted that she bring someone from hospice or a chapel to speak and pray with. That was about the only human thing she had to say in my opinion. I was livid, I was hurt, irritated, frustrated, I was every emotion in one.

I had no words for this woman, for all I knew she had no soul, she was insensitive, her negativity, lack of aptitude and capacity to handle vulnerability needed to go at once. I shook my head in distrust and walked over to my mom. In shock, we held each other as we cried. I felt like I had already lost grandpa, like I had already begun to mourn his loss, but technically speaking he was still alive, his heart was still pumping, and in my mind, he was going to wake. After a few minutes we asked that we get another doctor. The rest of my family started showing up one by one and one of my aunts refused to take him off ventilation. She threw a scene and started filling complaints. Everyone was upset with how the situation was handled and demanded that he be moved to the intensive care unit. After hours of mistreatment within the emergency care they decided to move him from their floor. There I found the ICU staff to be so much more rational and understanding. Family from out of state showed up by day two and we were told we had to come to a decision now that everyone had arrived. Regret was sinking in at its finest. I was spiraling out of control with my emotions, I was losing my mind.

I wasn’t ready to let go of hope, to give up on god! We are a religious group of people and grandpa by far was the most faithful of us all. He lived modestly and carried himself in such a humble manor. There was no way I could give up on him or on the faith he would preach to me day in and day out. He instilled the good that he would see in others, in me, if not us who would be his voice. Though there was much opposition and refusal, the family decided to wait seven days minimum to get more testing and results before making a final decision. Day three was approaching and I took a stance. I agreed we should have more testing done to see if there was even the slightest of changes.

“If only he would wake up and yell at us for dragging him to the hospital, hear him throwing a fit, demanding the tubes and monitors be removed, and telling us all to find ourselves out the door,” even his disapproval would mean everything to me at that time. I was in a denial and was resisting the inevitable and never left his side not even to eat. Who can even eat through moments like these, there grandpa lay three days with no food or fluids and all I could imagine and perceive was his suffering. Although doctors said he couldn’t feel anything because he didn’t have neurological responses, I felt wrong for putting him through more poking and prodding, invading his space like he was so strongly against. Food wasn’t on my mind for a split second, and for his health and healing we decided to fast. Seeing him lay what looked lifeless to me, made me wonder if what we were doing was the right decision. I knew if he could speak, he wouldn’t want this. He hated public places, was a complete germ freak, and for almost ten years never left his house let alone his bedroom because he was diagnosed with agoraphobia.

The doctors told me he was put on several medications just to stabilize him. I could see the machines doing all the breathing for him, it was a hard thing to witness, everything about the situation he was in was hard to absorb and consume. The disagreements among the family started to cause conflict. Everyone was at each other’s throats over his bedside. Hateful words were thrown around and people’s actions just took me completely for surprise. Family who had been absent for so long, would literally come and go not concerned about what could happen during such a delicate time. Some thought it was okay to say that it was 5 o’clock somewhere insinuating they were in need of drinks. The lack of respect was intolerable, unacceptable, and inconsolable. If I was feeling distraught before, they only inflicted more stress and depression on me, I felt like I had no one to turn to now that grandpa lay helpless in the cold, empty, somber hospital. I began to resent much of the people involved in my life along with the hospital. Grandpa’s body was giving up and his heart was under a lot of stress and yet there was still a lot of controversy as to what they wanted to do and how much longer they’d keep him on life support. Nevertheless, we feared letting go for our own sanity and I recognized it was wrong.

Grandpa stayed on breathing machines for six days. His heart gave out on its own on day seven and put the arguments to rest. I watched him take his last breath as I held on to his foot. There was so many people in the room, I just wanted to be close to him. I gave him one last hug and brushed his hair to the side. It finally dawned on me, that time was everything and it was the one thing we couldn’t get back no matter how badly we wanted it to. Wishing, praying, rethinking a situation wasn’t going to change the fact that someone who I held so close to me was no longer going to guide me through my own life trials, and hardships.

The next morning, we were all to gather at grandpa’s house to be with grandma who needed us the most. We were going to do a prayer session followed along with arrangements for his service and burial. Instead I arrived to complete chaos.  My family, who would’ve thought, acting like complete savages. Things were being tossed in piles, a fire was going, and grandma was sitting alone in her room. They didn’t give it a second, they were already clearing out my grandpa’s belongings like he didn’t matter, family from out of state were taking over like his death was no surprise like he never mattered to them in the first place. Things he held so dear were thrown in the fire like they were worthless, his house was being stripped and torn apart, his clothes and bibles he cherished were being burned in the fire with trash. He had items with worth, collectable items, vintage, and sentimental possessions that were being fought over, and ravished. I heard my aunts arguing over the property and who would take over the house and when, cousins in the next room fighting over what they’d build on the property, uncles arguing over who would pay for the funeral expenses and how they were going to divide up the payments, and grandma in silence alone with not one person to grieve with. He had passed away hours ago and everyone’s lives just picked up where they left off.

The conflict that had emerged caused a continued family feud to this day.  My uncle kept the house and the property because it was obvious those were his only intentions upon arriving. To save herself the headache, put an end to the fighting, and in hopes to give her son who she hadn’t seen in nearly twenty years, a reason to stay, grandma agreed to move out of her own home and into the basement of my aunt’s house. She left him everything to do as he pleases and only took a few pictures along with her. It was a complete shame that grandpa’s legacy was being burned to the ground. Before his passing, he left a will in place so that his kids could carry a part of him always.  In that will among other things, it stated his only son would get the house and the property beyond the garage that consisted of several acres, was to be divided among his daughters. Grandma wasn’t dead yet though, she was sitting in the mists of it all and nowhere in the will did it say to ravish the home and scrap it out while she was still very much living, she still had a voice and opinion of her own but they treated her like she had no right to anything anymore. She was no longer her own person.

I failed to acknowledge how I took many things for granted even my own life.  His death took me through a dark stage in my life, through depression, and at times even questioning my faith. I went through different phases as I mourned my loss, I shut people out, I resented family for so long, and I lost interest in living all together. I had no ambition to do anything, I let myself go, and the things that I found joy in no longer held meaning to me. The experience haunted me for so long and I just wanted an out.  I replayed his last words and the things he would say to me because those things stuck, and through it all eventually I figured out that I was looking at things from the wrong perspective.

It was like a light bulb turned on in my head, so many thoughts and feelings came up and made me really reflect on my past. I started to think about all the things grandpa would preach to me and I realized how I wanted to move forward and live life entirely different. I learned to accept things for what they are, and it turn it helped me change the way I carry myself as a person. Grief is a powerful thing, and I didn’t want to live in fear, I didn’t want to regret anything, what I should have done or could have, and I didn’t want to waste another minute of my own life replaying the incident in my head as if I could change what happened. What finally registered in my head, however, is that I could in fact change how I carried out my future.

I take in life, I appreciate the little things and don’t put things off for tomorrow, for tomorrow is not promised and God has a plan of his own. I like to think that because of grandpa I’ve become the person I am today. He may have stolen a chunk of my happiness, of my heart when he died, but his death influenced me to make the changes I did. I am a different version of me who has experienced a loss, facing challenges that have molded my character. Through such a hard time in my life I was able to find myself and figure out in what direction I wanted to go. If anything, grandpa’s death has given me courage. I made the choice that the pain I felt wasn’t going to completely destroy or define me, but rather make me stronger instead!


Trump’s Motives Contributes to Threat of Nuclear War

Trump’s Motives Contributes to Threat of Nuclear War

Nuclear technology in the wrong hands could become dangerous not only for Americans but for the world at which bringing peace to the Mideast is no longer the focus. The Iran nuclear deal that has led to negotiations with Saudi Arabia is a relevant crucial topic being discussed today. The potential threat of a nuclear war has driven many people to skepticism with Trump’s irrational measures taken within the White House. Since the United States  has been a leader in nuclear technology, the International Atomic Energy Agency agreement guarantees: no materials provided by the United States be used for explosives, prohibits the sale of nuclear technology, and the transfer of classified data all of which are put in place to prevent the use of nuclear weapons and production of destructive nuclear bombs which would violate government policies. The past few years the Iran nuclear deal has raised many concerns as President Trump moves to shift the nuclear power balance of the Middle East in favor of Saudi Arabia despite it being a risk to U.S. national security absent adequate safeguards completely dismissing the Atomic Energy Act of 1954.

The Editorial Board from the New York Times article, “Trump’s Idea of a Middle East Nuclear Deal,” voices Trump’s motives with the Iran nuclear deal and states that Trump’s administration would provide materials to a government that can use nuclear weapons against Iran. Adding to the concern, the Editorial Board purposes there is reason to put stricter controls in place. “By ramming through the sale of as much as $80 billion in nuclear power plants, the Trump administration would provide sensitive know-how and materials to a government whose de facto leader, Crown Prince Mohammed bin Salman, has suggested that he may eventually want a nuclear weapon as a hedge against Iran.” (Editorial Board, 2019) As a result of Trump’s nuclear cooperation with Saudis, the Editorial Board has argued that although the nuclear deal was deemed a risk, Trump’s administration overlooked laws and proceeded with nuclear dealings to gain profits and appears to exhibit no regard with the continued activities despite warnings by career and political staff members. Saudi Arabia claims they only want the technology to produce nuclear power for domestic purposes and prolong their oil reserves. (Editorial Board, 2019) However, despite their assertion Saudis’ refusal to make a commitment in surrendering uranium enrichment and plutonium reprocessing, without a doubt could lead to nukes.

Though some may disagree with the Editorial Board’s argument which focuses solely on one perspective viewing Trump’s effort as a selfish act of greed and negligence to be biased, manipulative, even distorted, I like many others, find this approach plausible because it provides logical thought, contributes to ethical appeals, and provides prospective to readers which is far more practical.

The Editorial Board can provide an explanation to their claim through the use of logos by applying proof of the corruption within Trump’s administration supporting that the actions not be in the national security interest of the United States. With Saudi Arabia planning a project to build reactors and having planned for nuclear foundations, Sanger and Broad (2018) found it becomes a serious concern when they refuse to rule out their right to enrich uranium for nuclear weapons. Ultimately, the Editorial Board suggests, “it’s no surprise that the Saudis would prefer to negotiate over nuclear technology with Mr. Trump,” (Editorial Board, 2019) implying they rather negotiate with someone who looks passed the legal aspects and responsibilities also a reasonable implication to why they chose to approach the matter from their perspective.

Sources included in the article addressed by the Editorial Board, persuade the New York Times readers with reason and facts following a sequence of logical thought. With the Atomic Energy Act and incorporation of the 123 agreements, the Editorial Board can attribute the transferring of nuclear technology to Saudi Arabia and the spread of atomic weapons. Thus, by elaborating on the 123 agreements criteria and requirements, the Editorial Board is also educating its readers of the agreement’s goals in order to establish its significance in the nuclear deal within the White House and how that connects to the Saudis involvement in uranium and reprocess of plutonium, hence a pathway to nuclear bombs.

The Editorial Board also expands understanding of what nuclear power could mean for the United States by convincing its readers why their opinion is rational. Using evidence and quotations, the Editorial Board is able to apply rhetorical analysis to the argument. They provide a perspective that helps to draw judgments on aspects of Saudi Arabia’s determination to produce their own nuclear fuel and nuclear power plants. Reports referenced by the Editorial Board, justify the relevance of concern they preserve as they go on to express their speculation, “but it’s hard to trust such assurances, given Saudi animosity toward Iran.” They also embrace a statement made by Prince Mohammed bin Salman, “without a doubt, if Iran developed a nuclear bomb, we will follow suit as soon as possible,” exposing credible interest. In addition, the fact that Saudi Arabia refuses to sign agreements that prohibits production of nuclear weapons, more specifically atomic bombs, also appeals to the logos and ethos. More so, it reveals character on behalf of those making the decisions and exposes their recklessness a sensible indication to why the Editorial Board would think that nukes may pose a threat in the near future.

Although the Editorial Board’s response to Trump’s negotiations with Saudi Arabia encourages its readers to draw analysis from the information they provided in their context, they only considered one perspective and did not consider forming other points of view to appeal against the matter. With that said, it could be argued that the Editorial Board was manipulating the audience in one direction and might not be considered morally correct. Some could argue that it is not just the United States that is providing nuclear technology and could oppose the Editorial Board’s claim, that perhaps Trump’s negotiations with Saudi Arabia would in fact be in the United States best interest in keeping peace in Mideast and the United states if we cooperate with Saudis decisions. This is a theory that some may agree with if they consider the fact that the United States is not the only option for Saudi Arabia who has other countries such as Pakistan who might be willing to help. Because New York Times readers are limited in standpoint, the Editorial Board does not promote Trump’s motives as beneficial in the long run for the Mideast or the United States. They omit the advantage that the United States might have in monitoring the activities going on in Saudi Arabia.

Essentially, the Editorial Board’s concerns are relevant and plausible in present day, however there are still other angles to take into consideration that were not addressed in the article. But, in spite of overlooking different aspects of the circumstances the United States has been put in, and the lack of solutions offered in the Editorial Board’s response to the nuclear deal, they did offer an alternative shift to gain security considering the urgency of the matter. They took into consideration that there may be a huge change with nuclear power therefore, stipulations and provisions should begin effect immediately to ensure the safety of all communities not just our own. It would have been an even stronger article had they applied more solutions to their argument instead of just focusing on the problem but rather what we can do to fix the situation.

Though the Editorial Board fixated on one primary focus, Trump allowing Saudi Arabia the ability to contribute to the spread and production of nuclear arms, the Editorial Board allows the readers to respond and form their own opinions from the narrow-ended approach.

Some look at the situation from a different view point, I on the other hand prefer not to take such a leap in faith hoping for the best outcome regarding Trump pursuing negotiations with Saudi Arabia. I find that the Iran nuclear deal was a dangerous act to begin with and am not convinced that Saudi Arabia will not participate in destructive nuclear activities that could pose a threat in the future. I don’t put my money on Saudi Arabia nor my trust in them like Trump does because Saudis aspirations with uranium and reprocessing of plutonium urges me to believe Saudi Arabia will eventually conduct an atomic bomb. The Editorial Board allows its readers to question acts made such as why Saudi Arabia wouldn’t want others to oversee the activities going on in their country, and from this readers are able to draw their own conclusions.

The Editorial Board fails to foster more than one perspective and doesn’t propose alternative solutions. Some would depict this approach as biased pushing the audience to favor only their conception while others may look at it to reflect on why they chose to structure and develop their approach the way they did. However, considering the Editorial Board’s argument did not use vivid wording or appeal to emotional values on this political affair, it eliminates predisposed conceptions and allows for more accurate and objective opinions. Furthermore, the Editorial Board applied credible sources which constitutes the facts and data they applied to develop their point to make it convincing and allowed the readers to engage withholding judgment from the text. In short, the Editorial Board used the details of the text to achieve its purpose.

Work Cited

Editorial Board. 2019. “Opinion | Trump’s Idea of a Middle East Nuclear Deal – The New York Times.” February 20, 2019.

Sanger, David E., and William J. Broad. 2018. “Saudis Want a U.S. Nuclear Deal. Can They Be Trusted Not to Build a Bomb?” The New York Times, November 24, 2018, sec. World.






Lauren Daigle Finding Faith Again

Lauren Daigle Finding Faith Again

Lauren Daigle was recognized for her genre of the decade as a Christian artist when she released her first album How Can It Be in 2015 making it platinum status. Like many of her successors, Chris Tomlin, Francesca Batisttille, Danney Gokey, Jeremy Camp, and Matthew West, Daigle’s determination and efforts earned her “No. 1 on the Billboard Top Christian Albums chart.” (Wikipedia, 2019). Daigle then went on to pursue her career releasing her second album in 2018, “becoming the highest-charting Christian album by a woman in over 20 years, and No. 1 on the Top Christian Albums chart.” (Earl, 2018)  Lauren Daigle’s second successful debut album Look Up Child transitions from subtle Contemporary Christian to what mimics Christian Alternative, particularly pop, a much broader genre that empowers a variety of styles, tones, and compelling lyrics that still constrain to her strong beliefs but also open up to a spectrum that more listeners could find relevant and connect with outside of gospel.

Daigle’s first album How Can It Be encourages listeners to join in the praise through her intense and powerful lyrics. She offers her strong emotions, honesty and faith, and delivers a message that is more along the lines of her religious disciplines inviting others to seek her beliefs as well. However, with Look Up Child, Daigle makes a crossover to what seems relatively like pop music but also combines hip hop and at times we get a little bit of slow rock thrown into the mix. Her piercing and burly as well as tender vocals combined with her lyrics to embody subtle yet uprising evolution music. As Daigle contributes a diverse range of dynamic music, her message of acceptance, self-worth, and emotions articulated are not necessarily confined to worship as many songs could be referring to just about anyone and be relevant to not only a Christian fan base. Because “Daigle grew up enthralled by the music of iconic vocalists Celine Dion and Whitney Houston, and initially pursued a pop career,” it’s no surprise that Look Up Child’s Alternative upbeat waves and shift in vocal tones stray away from Christian traditional values and could easily be mistaken for worldly music. (Nicholson, 2018)

The album Look Up Child starts off with “Still Rolling Stones,” a thunderous tune that carries the pace soaring above How Can It Be. Though it may catch you off guard to to hear such a fresh focus in this album compared to How Can It Be, the unexpected beat strikes as attractive and limitless.

Many have deemed her strong lyrics and sharp vocals compare to that of singer, Adele with her song “Rolling in the Deep.” Daigle’s empowering lyrics, A dead man walking / Till love came calling / Rise up (rise up) / Rise up (rise up), doesn’t just bring hope and inspiration to those who support her, but her swaying orchestra speaks volumes and reveals her pure honesty.

She slows down the tempo with “Rescue” and “This Girl” but briskly jumps into “Your Wings,” which even incorporates reggaeton where she impersonates Zhavia Ward a hip-hop R&B artist.  The song resembles “Send Me Your Location” by Khalid where Daigle adjust to raspy vocals like that of Ward and similar beats that could fit right in on any music station.

Taking a step forward, Daigle takes a swing at the world with “You Say” with just the use of the piano and her delicate vocals that seeps into your brain. Though she took a chance when she wrote the songs for Look Up Child, Daigle’s “You Say” production of soul-searching lyrics transports you to tranquility and has a way of leaving a mark with its memorable sound form that many can connect with. Daigle “told people that fans have even credited the song with saving their lives.” (Butler, 2018)

She then sets a soothing melody with “Everything” proving her passion as a Christian artist. And yet, “Everything” does become repetitive and somber which defeats what Look Up Child is trying to establish. “Love Like This,” on the other hand, dives back into Christian Alternative and the impression of music being speckled with her clever phrases and refined arrangements. Although, “Look Up Child” may also be repetitive, the lyrics reach a wide range of listeners and her solid tone raises the bar. Her catchy beat and verses become validly relatable. Look Up Child” only adds to Daigle’s passion behind Contemporary Christian music where she reminds an audience to have faith when there is hardship and struggles.  She sings from her heart bringing her unique qualities all while being completely vulnerable.

Towards the latter half of the album, “Losing My Religion” turns to a conventional path on the road to an expansive direction. The title alone attracts attention as to where her faith lies and what audience she is aiming to please. She establishes an effective statement with this verse, I’ve been an actor on a stage/ Playing a role I have to play /. The word choice, living behind a mascaraed, narrows down to soul searching and seems to play a huge role of importance behind the meaning of this song. With every note she hits, Daigle executes grace, control, and her personality radiates through her, bringing the crowd to a silence. Where “Rebel Heart” and “Inevitable” contribute to doubt, fighting for acceptance, and surrendering, “Daigle writes without fearing judgement discovering her beliefs all over again.” (Jones, 2018)

Because Daigle made her name on Christian music, she wanted to stay true to her Christian fan base while also appealing to a wider audience. (Butler, 2018) The fact that Daigle’s music wasn’t confined exclusively to gospel stunning many listeners, her next album could possibly take a mainstream path, more so, she may make a complete cross over much like Amy Grant.  However, though Daigle explores her faith and her music is motivated by finding meaning and purpose with Look Up Child, she ends the album on a positive note with “Your Eyes Upon Jesus,” a clean and innocent song that confirms her Christianity remains a part of her life. While How Can It Be was conservative, Look Up Child conquered an electrifying vibe. And yet, Daigle was able to find balance not only on a religious ground but adding an edge and that extra oomph she was desperately seeking to poor out.

Work Cited

Butler, Bethonie. n.d. “Who Is Lauren Daigle, the Christian Artist Finding Success on the Mainstream Billboard Charts? – The Washington Post.” Accessed April 12, 2019.

Earls, Aaron. 2018. “Lauren Daigle Shocks Music Industry With Chart Topping Album.” Facts & Trends. September 27, 2018.

Jones, Emily. 2018. “Lauren Daigle Talks About ‘Losing Her Religion’ in New Album.” CBN News. September 5, 2018.

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Will E-Mobility Hinder Climate Change?

Will E-Mobility Hinder Climate Change?


With the world facing future crisis, the automotive industry is shifting towards a cleaner power source and more efficient technologies. Society has been a key factor in the contribution to climate, transportation in particular, has put a damper on air quality and environmental changes. Decarbonization nonetheless, is priority in a world that is expected to face critical situations in the future as a result of the broad spread of several factors that have had an influence on climate. However, it is the biggest sector that the nation is facing currently. More so, it is one of the biggest challenges to tackle with the world on a steady incline to destruction. Although electric vehicles (EV’s) have been said to have a significant impact on climate change, there have been barriers as well as demands that have not been met in order to see actual change that will put an end to climate change today.

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Will E-Mobility Hinder Climate Change?

As the global temperature continues to increase the search for a resolution has become an issue that more and more people are discussing across the nation. With illness and death from air pollution having been reported over the last several of years, as a result electric motors have emerged with the desire to reduce greenhouse gas emissions. (Wikipedia, 2019).  There is without a doubt need for a global push toward carbon free energy, or better yet, improving emissions of transportation released into the atmosphere. In attempt to counter global warming and its effects, low carbon vehicles like electric vehicles (EV’s) have been used to slow the transport of emission growth. Rather, with temperatures rising electric motors have become a source automakers have resorted to in hopes of hindering climate change. Although EV’s will not make a big enough difference to save the world from the upheaval of events that will unravel in the years to come, “EV’s are helping the nation steer towards the use of natural gas rather than coal as a lower carbon-fuel and improving air pollution.” (Chandler, 2017) Despite electric mobility (e-mobility) contributing to climate change, EV’s have a number of barriers to transportation, are still not an alternative to oil, are only temporarily beneficial because they are only as useful as their power source, and improve air pollution rather than combat climate change which is realistically inevitable to halt at this point.

Establishing Urgency of Climate Change

Michael Evans from Earth Times, (2011) estimated every year various forms of transport consume between 20% to 25% of the World’s energy and this significantly contributes to increasingly high levels of greenhouse gases that continue to be released into the atmosphere. Carbon pollution has been on a rise since 2012 and even before said year, changes throughout history have had massive impacts on the planet. It is no surprise that the world is on the brink of a catastrophic future as human activity continuously adds to global warming. With the rise in carbon dioxide concentrations creating rapidly increasing temperatures, economist Nicholas Stern from London School of Economics, warned “that a world with a net zero carbon dioxide emissions within a few decades will be absolutely necessary for society to maintain its current form, according to Peter Dizikes (2019) from MIT News. In addition, Geoffrey Smith (2017) from Fortune News, concludes that other sources of energy demand will keep upward pressure on CO2 demands. That said, the restoration of energy production, consumption, and transformation of energy use will still nonetheless, have global benefits.

Energy Source Demands

The impact of global emissions will be minimal as electricity demands continue to rise around the world ensuring that C02 levels keep rising. More importantly, it counters the objective of overcoming time as time is of the essence. Aside from the trending surge of CO2 levels, Smith (2017) expects the number of cars on the road will have doubled by 2040 reaching a high of 2 billion. Thus, this means if EV’s revolve bigger increments of electricity will be required. Accordingly, the notion that climate change is on a rapid rise, the purpose of EV’s is to become more resourceful with energy by eliminating coal fired powerplants crossing over to low emissions. And yet, there is no substitute for oil which only adds to the number of factors that will determine how effective EV’s will be in breaking climate change.

Plummeting Factors

Temperature rapidly rising plunges away at any progress EV’s have had or will have on secretions and climate change. As a consistent trending rise in temperature has been recognized, the continued increase has been predicted in the years that follow. In 2017, Chandler exposes how the Massachusetts Institute of Technology’s commitment towards reducing greenhouse emissions concludes every year that they are not moving fast enough and redouble their efforts.

Time. If temperature is estimated to increase at a steady pace it puts an emphasis on exactly how much time it will take to make a difference and how effective EV’s will be in that given time. It foreshadows a future in which drastic changes must be made by all mankind in order to significantly make changes that will counter life altering issues that will be consequently faced. In a post made by Lindsey Wilson (2013) noted is a reality that electric vehicles are not a remedy for increasing climate changes occurring. In order to contribute to carbon being emitted it will take the entire nation to make a lifestyle change to conserve the natural environment.

EV Transition. States such as the U.S. are in higher demand of daily transportation adding to the rising CO2 levels emitted into the atmosphere. Fortune News report made by Smith (2017) draws statistics that only 2 million of a total of 1 billion electric cars or hybrid engines make up the fraction of vehicles being used that year. This means that even though there is availability, EV’s are not making a turning point for the nation. Being a leading influence on the quality of air, gas fueled transportation diminishes the gains of better air quality that EV’s empower.

Problems with Power Source

Although consumers have not adapted to the shift in the automotive industry as quickly as anticipated, the world is slowly moving away from carbon fuel and oil towards substitute power sources like that of electricity that EV’s require. When the goal is to combat climate change, take in to consideration that it all varies upon where the source of energy comes from. Therefore, EV’s electricity source will only come from part of a clean source as electric motors are only as beneficial to climate change as their source of power. Brian Kahn, from Climate Central News (2017) says “EV’s are beneficial to climate because they reduce the use of oil but require a lot more power from electric grid.” How each country energies mix develops will determine how climate friendly EV’s will be on the road. Hence, EV’s can only improve air quality where less carbon dioxide emissions are produced in regions that rely on less coal.

Electricity Deemed to Rise. To create substantial changes in mitigating the effects of global warming, everyone needs to get on board with the future of auto industry as there is no way around the critical issue of air pollutants. Despite the benefits EV’s have had this far, with a global transition to electric powered vehicles there will be a higher demand on electricity. “Low emissions, much less zero emissions, are only true in certain places where most of electricity comes from a mix of low carbon sources.” (Biello, 2016) On the other hand, keep in mind that the climate doesn’t benefit when power plants are used to generate electricity to charge EV batteries. “If methane leaks from wells where it is produced, the pipelines that transport it or the power plants that burnt it, climate doesn’t necessarily benefit.” (Biello, 2016)

Urbanization. As a result of EV’s, it has become apparent that a rise in an electrical demand is expected through 2040. Smith (2017) was able to pull liable information determining that 280 million EV’s account for a fraction of total rise in electricity demands as cited by the International Energy Agency. Rising living standards are emerging around the world and require a higher amount of electricity putting a strain on the progression of reducing harmful toxins in the air. The society today is always looking for improvement and advancement of all sorts particularly in technologies, and appliances that entail an electric powered source. The effects or a more congested range along with suburbs will be tremendous because even small appliances and internet routers will require twice as much electricity as EV’s by 2040. (Smith, 2017)

Elimination of Oil

For several years Tesla has aimed to fight and adapt to climate change as human race has had a major influence on the rise in temperature. EV’s being a prime target for cutting pollution with carbon emissions declining, clean energy continues to expand due to rapidly falling cost and wide spread adoption. (The Guardian, 2019) Adding to the reduction of greenhouse gases, Kahn (2017) states, “electric cars are the way of the future as the cost of batteries fall and the number of automakers producing a wider range of electric cars increase.”  Indefinitely, EV’s are a step in the right direction to reducing greenhouse gases but can only be beneficial and true if the number of electric vehicles sales increase requiring fewer barrels of oil. As discussed by Smith (2017) regardless of breaches made, there is no alternative to oil for commercial aviation. Alone, trucks and bus transportation has been an obstacle in creating more efficient battery sources as well as defeating emissions.

Barriers to EV Transportation

Though climate change has been proved to be an imperative crisis we will all face soon, and are already undergoing today, given the circumstances electric vehicles do not seem to be a priority. EV’s were said to revolve and become widespread but that is currently a misconception. How popular are electric vehicles when most of the world is still driving gas powered vehicles? Dana Nuccitelli (2018) discloses that 97% of U.S. car sales were still purely gasoline powered vehicles.


If powerplants decarbonizing over time, climate mitigation goals could be met as EV’s could replace 90% of vehicles on the road. (Chandler, 2016) Even with that said, strongly opposing views could suggest that the cost of such a vehicle, the inconvenience of being battery powered, and the lack of charging structures has taken a toll on how effective EV’s have been or can be.

Lack of Infrastructures. There is an immediate lack of charging power stations in many places. The need for infrastructures increases as well as the cost for the establishment of these stations. Chandler (2019) provides the rational assertion that greater investment in the new technologies will be necessary to take carbon-free energy to the next step. To invest in studies and generate more efficient technologies there needs to me more funds on both the consumers end and manufacturers.

Inconvenience of Batteries. EV’s that run on battery powered energy have limited distance on a single charge compared to the range of gasoline can on a tank of gas. (Chandler, 2016) Even though both the cost of batteries as well as the life expectancy and range of batteries has improved over the years, they have also been barriers to the widespread adoption of EV’s. Chandler (2016) references to MIT team research findings that propose that the vast majority of cars on the road consume no more energy in a day then the battery energy capacity in EV’s available. If driver needs are being met, then there should be no reason why EV’s are not already sky rocketing in sales or making significant alteration.

Affordability. Prices for EV’s are higher than conventional cars, have lower maintenance and operating cost, and yet, have not met the affordability needs of consumers. At that, people would need to adopt to the new line of EV’s as well as make a sacrifice in their budgets so that EV profits can be sustained. Although they are highly rated, EV’s Tesla models have premium prices having little to no potential in the relevance of climate change.


            Ultimately, there has been statistical evidence that EV’s have had an impact on reducing air pollutants and having minimal impact on reducing the rise in temperature. Therefore, EV’s don’t combat climate change but instead help improve air quality in areas that have adapted to carbon-free resources. However, even with that said, EV’s have had some beneficial effects towards the health on human race, on the economy, and in more congested areas that can benefit the most from the transition to EV’s. As EV emissions do not expose CO2 or harmful chemicals into the atmosphere they have been successful in alleviating some conditions endured by society. In conclusion, initially it is not realistic to put a complete end to inevitable shift in the climate changes seen today or predicted in the future. Time is a huge factor that counters any ambitions of being successful with the move to stabilize further damage or render climate changes at this point in time.


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